About Me

Sometimes I wonder how many people really know theirselves...It has took me plenty of time to even get a hint of what I like...love...and what life is all about. I have put other people first all of my life and still do so a little. But I am learning to do better and to love myself for who I am...while I go through this thing called life...

I am going to try to focus on me here....when I describe myself I always do the job, kids, status....ect. So for now, I will tell you I am ME. Who am I?? Hmmmm...I have searched long and hard within myself to figure this out.

Music is soo very important to me. It helps me think, it helps me clear all the negative talk that I find myself throughout the day dealing with. It helps me deal with different things going on now or in the past in my life. I can relate to so many different types of music and I absolutley could not live without it.

I am diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder), Panic Disorder & Bipolar (Manic Depression).

GAD- People with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) experience pathological anxiety, which is excessive, chronic, and typically interferes with their ability to function in normal daily activities. Generalized or "free-floating" anxiety is distinguished from phobia because it is not triggered by a specific object or situation.

I have been like this for years now, but got diagnosed about 3 years ago. I had hit the worst time in my life and was about to kill myself...I couldn't take it any longer. I have had a lot of trouble but am slowly and surely getting my shit together and living day by day.

PANIC DISORDER (PANIC ATTACKS)

People with panic disorder suffer severe attacks of panic-which may make them feel like they are having a heart attack or are going crazy-for no apparent reason. Symptoms include heart palpitations, chest pain or discomfort, sweating, trembling, tingling sensations, feeling of choking, fear of dying, fear of losing control, and feelings of unreality. Panic disorder often occurs with agoraphobia, in which people are afraid of having a panic attack in a place from which escape would be difficult, so they avoid these places.

~Things I Love~

~MY FAVORITE FLICKR PICS~

Movies I Can Watch Over & Over

Pretty Woman

Steel Magnolias

All Adam Sandler Movies

2 Fast 2 Furious

~In My CD Player~

Metallica

Edwin McCain

AC/DC

Alanis Morrissette

Hootie & The Blowfish

Guns~N~Roses

Nickelback

Mary J Blige

Kelly Clarkson

ZAC BROWN BAND

Manic Depression (Bipolar)
Signs and symptoms of bipolar disorder

Bipolar disorder differs significantly from clinical depression, although the symptoms for the depressive phase of the illness are similar. People who have bipolar disorder talk about experiencing mood shifts. These swings can be severe, ranging from extreme energy to deep despair. These mood shifts disrupt normal life activities distinguish bipolar mood episodes from ordinary mood changes. The shifts may be mild ranging from sadness to irritability or restlessness.

Symptoms of mania - the "highs" of bipolar disorder

Increased physical and mental activity and energy
Heightened mood, exaggerated optimism and self-confidence
Excessive irritability, aggressive behavior
Decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue
Grandiose delusions, inflated sense of self-importance
Racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas
Impulsiveness, poor judgment, distractibility
Reckless behavior
In the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations

Symptoms of depression - the "lows" of bipolar disorder

Prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells
Significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns
Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety
Pessimism, indifference
Loss of energy, persistent lethargy
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness
Inability to concentrate, indecisiveness
Inability to take pleasure in former interests, social withdrawal
Unexplained aches and pains
Recurring thoughts of death or suicide

I have all of the above....so sometimes it can be very difficult for me to even function. It can be very debilitating. It can make you not even get out of bed in the morning and make everyday normal tasks seem like a huge deal. It fuckin' sucks and is no fun.

Football! WHOO-HOOO....I L-O-V-E me some Football! My son has played for 5 years. This is my oldest son here getting ready to line up as a lineman! Go Baby Go!!!

Now and I love college and pro. My favorite college teams are

1. University Of Texas-Longhorns

2. Alabama - Crimson Tide

3. Air Force - Falcons

I am only faithful to one NFL team which is Tennessee Titans. I know they suck right now but I am faithful. I like to watch any games that I know one or the other is not going to get blown out. I prefer defense over offense and my favorite position is defensive lineman. I love when they sack the quarterback. My favorite player is Drew Bennett #83 on the Titans. What can I say Football Rocks!

READING

I love reading books. Some of my favorite authors are Janet Evanovich, Maya Angelou, Terry McMillian, and plenty of others. I don't like those sappy romance novels but I like autobiographies something where I can learn something. I love books and the knowledge they bring me. Especially books about parenting, mental problems, and interesting people.

MOTORCYCLES

OMG! I love motorcycles...I don't own one but I want one soo bad I can taste it. I am currently saving up money to get one though. I also want to go to the motorcycle races soo bad....how 'bout anything to do with bikes...i love!

I hate the sound of leaves being stepped on under my feet.

I hate to leave my hair down, it bothers the back of my neck.

I hate the smell of cabbage and turnip greens cooking.

I hate the smell of boiled eggs.

I love the smell of cologne on a man.

I love the smell of coffee brewing.

I love the smell of gasoline.

I love the smell of moth balls ( I know I am strange).

I love the smell of fresh cut grass.

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